Girls Weekend

So the hubs is away and it's just us gurls. The three of us. As I write this the youngest is snuggled behind me in my chair, oldest is vegged out on the bed to my right. I love these girls, they make me smile and feel so loved. Other moments I want to pull my hair out, but what ya gunna do? They're kids. I couldn't be prouder of the lil geeks I'm raising. My girls recognize the music of WoW, Doctor Who, Lord of the Rings, and many other things. They love the Avengers (I think we will need to make our first trip to a comic bookstore soon). The other morning when driving oldest to school they were having some imaginary play in the backseat involving Repunzel, within the 20 minute drive there were witches, The Doctor, Spider-man, and an evil step-mother. All I could do is smile and be proud that they are becoming well rounded. There is still a bit too much princess in their life I think, I would rather it be rough and tumble independent women play. The princess stuff doesn't teach them that, it teaches them to wait for a man to rescue them. Having girls it is a bit unavoidable unless you want to offend every person in your life that things every girl needs a princess book that talks about their wedding plans... So I hide those books, and let them turn their princess dolls into Daleks. As much as I have struggled to find myself and my geekiness, and to accept it, I never want to do that to my kids. My kids are quirky and imaginative. I LOVE it!! Can't wait to introduce them to more stuff and to learn about that stuff myself with them. After all I am walking into the world I denied myself for far too long. We will do it together. Happy Saturday!!

Peace and Love,
Jay

Life and times

So this week I have started back into Diablo III. I am suddenly a bit obsessed. I'm not sure why. I liked it at launch but never dove into it full force. I started with a fresh demon hunter and I loves her. She blows shit up like you wouldn't believe. Now its possible that if I'd started with her I would have fallen in love long ago. I haven't touched WoW in days, which happens from time to time. I have been feeling a bit burned out so it qas a good time to try out something else. Since I play Diablo solo it feeds my inner introvert which I think I've been lacking lately. It's a great feeling to find a game to love. Now if I could get a Heathstone beta key that would make my week.

Peace and Love
Jay.

Rough days

So lately life has been a quite stressful and while I have often used this blog to vent that is not my goal today. Today I want to talk about gaming as a form of self care. (Aka stress relief) Some days I just want to come home and melt some face. This oddly enough has been difficult lately since I've been raiding as a healer and my time is limited. I had to have a hard conversation with my hubby who is also our raid leader. With school starting back up I have to stop raiding at least for awhile. I'm sad but also a bit excited about this. It frees up my game time to experience all the things I haven't been able to. I will get to play different toons, pet battle (I still have no pets to 25). I still get to be social I'm in vent I may even change my priests gear around to be dps back up when I can be there for raid. But letting go released a lot of stress for me. I feel like my stress relief became a stressor, and now I can go back to enjoying my gaming life a bit more. The lesson I've learned is it's important to keep balance in all things even my hobbies. On that note; Happy Friday all!!
Peace and Love,
Jay

Where I am.

Six months ago I was talking to my husband about our experience as a couple in WoW and how that had shaped the way our relationship currently looks. WoW took a toll on us, which I explained briefly in my first post. I had recently found the Twitter community, and I wanted to share our story. I figured we couldn't be that unique and had hoped that people relate to our story. We decided that I should start a blog about how I am a closeted geek, quite the inside joke. I don't feel so closeted any more, I don't hide my gaming as much, and I am much more open with my geeky references.  I was hesitant to start the blog I am not a writer, I have never aspired to be a writer. I write when I have to, I write for school and work. I was surprised at how much I enjoy writing. It has a bit of catharsis to it, but it is more than that. The few comments I have gotten brighten my day. Just completing a post gives me a sense of accomplishment. I haven't shared with many people that I write occasionally in my own blog, nor what I write about. While I am not concerned about what the few people that read my blog think about my writing skills or my opinions, the thoughts of those who surround me is very important to me. Their judgment scares me to death. So I avoid it and don't tell them.
I am rambling again, the point I was wanting to get to is that I have started to love blogging and I want to do it more. I thought I would have more time to carve out without being in school, but that has just not happened. Self-discipline is in order I think along with not just talking about WoW. WoW is hardly the biggest part of my life, there are so many things that are catching my interest daily. My posts will hopefully be broader and more frequent. One post a week is my goal. We'll see if I get there and maybe, just maybe I'll tell someone that knows me that I write... Thanks for reading

Peace and Love,
Jay

Blink twice

I remember being a child and hearing the adults all talk about how time flies. The surprise at how much older you are, like they only saw you a day ago when it has been years. As a chikd I felt everyday of those years they dragged on and on. Then one day I grew up and now I hear those same words out of my mouth "oh my god you can't be in high school you were just a baby". Days fly by in a blink. Blink twice and 6 months is gone. This weekend we are celebrating my minions birthdays. Oldest will be 6 on Sunday. Perfect father's day gift. The babe will be 4 next month so due to hectic schedules we are combining friend parties and will have a family gathering next  month. I cannot believe how fast these years have flown. Each day gets shorter and shorter.  It feels as though I was just giving birth. My kids are my world but I worry about how hectic I feel. Do they know how loved they are? Do I create enough special moments?  I try. I hope they are enjoying their childhood. I loved mine and somedays I miss the eternity that one day could be. One day their days too will be gone in the blink of an eye.

Happy Friday

So yay I transferred my pally back to a blood elf. She's back to her happy self. I didn't want to stop playing her.  Finally went to bed aftee midnight. Super late for an old person like me! But I'm a super excited about working on her and seeing horde perspective. Wow geekery in full force today :-)

Peace and love,
Jay

How time flies

So once again its nearly been a month since I last posted. School is over yet I still have hardly played any WoW. Adult priorities and all :-). I have also been thinking about what I want this blog to be. I enjoy many things in life and I find myself in a time of transition right now. As a woman in my 30s I thought I was "done" with the whole growing pains, but apparently I was wrong. I am finding myself looking at who I am and where I want to be. A part of my growth may be this blog. Sharing myself and my adventures as a whole. As I progress I will share and process here. I want to allow others to share as well. Are you embracing your change? Let me know.  Share in comments or follow me on Twitter @Jaygurrl